Honestly, I feel really bad for guys.

     So, I went on a trip with a really close guy friend of mine this past Saturday. We drank a lot of alcohol, and we ended up fooling around. He said that he had condoms, so I told him to put one on. I got on top of him, literally was there for like 5 seconds, and he came. He was soooooooooooooo embarrassed. I told him not to worry about it, but he was still upset. It makes me feel bad for guys sometimes, because I can’t help but laugh about it now. It just made me think. If he thought there was a chance of us hooking up (he did because of the condoms that were brought) why didn’t he prepare a little bit? Try something to make sure he doesn’t come waaaaay too quickly. Is there even a way for a guy to do that? Let me know if you want to. I am actually really curious about this subject. 

Yours truly
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I am so sexually frustrated

I have never had an orgasm with a partner. I’ve tried EVERYTHING. Guys have gone down on me. I have had intercourse in several different positions, while I stimulate my clit. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I know, there is nothing wrong with me, because it just means I’m harder to get off. BUY WHY?! It almost feels like my body is betraying me. I can make myslef come when I’m by myself, but even then, my orgasms aren’t very satisfying. It’s making me a little bit crazy. Can I just meet a guy that will rock my socks off?! I really wish I knew what it was like to completely lose myself in a mind blowing orgasm. I know my body pretty well, yet I can never climax with someone, no matter how good it feels. Hopefully, I can figure out to climax with someone.

Best tinder date EVER

     If you couldn’t tell by the title of this blog post, I have a tinder. I have recently been more active on it, because WHY THE HELL NOT? I think tinder is a good way to meet people, that you would, otherwise, never bump into on the street or something. So, I have been branching out, and been way more open to going on these dates.
     I matched with someone, let’s call him Brandon. We went on a date, some nice dinner place. All around it was a very good date (good conversation, chemistry, etc.) During a night of a lot of drinking, I texted him. I set up plans with him to hangout at his place one night. Let me tell you, that night did come.
     When I showed up, we were being completely normal. You know, talking, laughing, flirting, and just hanging out. But, he did start to lean in and kiss me. I was totally fine with it, so I went along with it. More kissing, touching, bantering back and forth, teasing, kept us from not being able to keeping out hands off each other. I showed up at 12ish am that night, and didn’t end up leaving until 9am the next day. We never had sex, but he was really into the idea of getting me off. His exact words, “We don’t have to have sex or anything, but I really want to get you off” He told me that I didn’t owe him anything, and wouldn’t have to return the favor. I think he could tell how turned on I was. I can’t even explain how amazing the entire encounter was from beginning to start. I really want it to happen again, but I’m not sure on how to do that. So, if you have any advice, let me know. I could definitely use it.

A Poem About Being Evil

Evil spelled backwards tells me to live.

Although love is dangerous, impatient, and most of the time unkind.

I find myself lost in it’s endless labyrinth.

Because ignorance is bliss, and I am on cloud nine for the time being.

Seduced by the way love makes me live, and how it sometimes makes me evil.

But they’re the same thing, aren’t they?

 

Apathy, that word is the real evil.

The lack of any feeling, because without our emotions we’d all be robots.

In some ways we are those mechanical demons.

Believing lies of others, but no longer believing in ourselves,

just so we can feel appreciated for a few hours.

And eventually we end up soaking our pillow with salt water.

 

The dreams and fairytales morph into new life.

You start to feel again, and it really fucking hurts.

But you can see reality, in all it’s harsh clearness,

and start to notice the real evil.

It wasn’t you, but it could be if you follow.

Following the yellow brick road to the path of pain and regret.

To use others for you own evil.

 

I never thought about the way someone could hurt me, and not even know.

To stab me repeatedly, and not even leave a wound.

This, my friends, is a warning.

Don’t be dangerous, because most people can’t refuse the temptation of evil.

I believe there are two different evils.

One can make you live, and the other can kill.

Which one will you choose?

I have a date?! What?!

Yes, it is true! I, with all the craziness going on in my life, have a date. I got a tinder, and I talk to a few guys, and he’s the first dude who isn’t really creepy and is really cute. I just wanted to tell someone, because I don’t really want to tell my friends about it and make a big deal. But anyways, hopefully everything goes okay! ☺
Have a lovely evening!

P.s I don’t really go on dates, so if anyone has any advice for me, it would be much appreciated. Thanks!

Yours truly

Bittersweet author

The funny thing about friendship in high school

Well, to be honest, it doesn’t really exist. I guess I can’t really say that for the general population, but from my personal experience and other’s I have heard or seen. I don’t really know how to explain it the ‘perfect’ way, so I’m going to do my best to describe what I mean. High school is one of the worst stages in your life, for me, it’s the worst. I hate everything about high school, but what I hate the most is the fact you’re forced to stay with the same people for four years. For example, I am friends with people who don’t actually care about me, and don’t even try to understand and help me in difficult times. Even my ‘best friend’ is someone who I can’t count on very much. I am one of those people that will be there for someone, like, REALLY be there for you. I am that way because I’ve had to deal with a lot of shit in my life. My dad is an alcoholic/ addict and has struggled with this for most of my childhood. I had to grow up really fast. I had to learn the harsh reality of the world before any child should. Now I’m not saying that to get pity from anyone, because I am happy that it happened. It made me into the person I am today, and that is someone I can be proud of. Having to deal with that most of my childhood, and recently in my high school years, has opened my eyes even more. I am in high school, and I don’t have anyone that I can really look to in times of need. I usually try to stay strong, because that’s how I got through everything I have. But recently, things have been really crazy with school, boy troubles, college applications and deadlines, and now is when I need the most help from a friend, but I don’t have one…….That is a really pathetic to actually fathom and comprehend to myself. I know I’m not the only one that is going through this, but it’s sad that anyone should have to deal with this. I don’t really know why I decided to write about this…..I guess I feel alone right now, and it kinda sucks. I will get over it though. I’m a big girl. I’m just hoping this shit doesn’t happen in college.

Question for you guys! Help me!

Okay, so there’s this thing called tinder,  And apparently you can meet people. I have just started an account and there are some promising dudes on there. My question to you guys is whether actually going out on a date with the people you meet on tinder is a good idea. I am a young, attractive girl, and I’m always paranoid that something bad will happen to me if I meet new guys like that. But I see everywhere that girls, just like me, go on dates, and all the repercussions are is a bad date. I want to know your guy’s opinion whether I should go on a date or not, and if I do, how should I do it
Tips! Please help a girl out!

Yours truly
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