The OH so WONDERFUL conversation!

If you couldn’t tell, I am using the most sarcasm I have ever used in my life, and if you knew me, that’s a bold statement. Let’s see….what can I say…..it was absolute shit. Not only did I cry, because that’s what happens every time we have those conversations. But I also was blamed for ‘flirty’ because I didn’t outwardly tell the guy I was talking to that I wasn’t interested. I was a Frat party where I didn’t know anyone.  My friends were off doing their own thing, which I didn’t mind, but I was a little bit out of my comfort zone. I’m an adaptable person, so what did I do? I went and starting talking to someone,  a freshman guy named ‘Marcus’. He was actually really nice, and we had a very good conversation until we all left together to go back to the guys place to party. I talked with him at the guys place because he was in the same situation I was in when he came to my rescue at the Frat. I honestly didn’t mean to come off like I was flirting with him, it was a big misunderstanding. ‘Adam’ also said that I was being handsy with his friend ‘Jake’. It wasn’t like I was grabbing his ass or anything,  I was just touching his shoulder or something.  I honestly think ‘Adam’ was more jealous than anything.  I would never be like that around other people if I wasn’t comfortable around them. ‘Jake’ is someone I like and trust as a person, so I don’t think about me touching him as a ‘sexual thing’, but it was definitely taken that way from ‘Adam’. Adam also told me that I threw up in his sink, and then tried to ‘get some’, which is really embarrassing and I apologized for. But he said that I made him feel used. What? I know that I’m not perfect,  but every time we have these conversations, it’s just Adam telling me everything I did wrong. I just feel really awful right now. I don’t like feeling this way, because I am usually a really happy, upbeat person. I tried to be at least, but I definitely don’t feel that way right now. Well, there’s the update for ya. Hope your night went better than mine did.

Yours truly
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